insomnia?

guh. ive been hving the wrost sleep evr!! i keep waking up in the middle of the night/vry early in the morning. thiz fcking SUCKZZ!! sometimez i can fall asleep after but not 2day!! i woke up supr early now i cant fall asleep. bleh.

i'd tell my mom but shed just say "lay n bed nd close ur eyez!!1" or sum bs like that. UGH i hate her >:(

nyway. ig the 2 proz r that i cn use thiz nd that i cn catch up on homework i didnt finish. yay.....

:/

can scotland save me?

starting 2 think every1z agasint me

:/

i h8 eating!!! none of the food iz evr that good nd im sick of eating meat!!! if i hv 2 eat it again i will KILL MYSELF!!!

y cant i just b vegetarian.

y iz wanting 2 b alive so hard.

ralaspe

iz mental relapse a thing? i ponder as i paint my nails. the green iz watery nd GROZZ! but it haz 2 do 4 now. siighs.

ive given up hope for getting better. once i get my hands on a blade im doing it again. i cant stand thiz. i feel empty.

without shark, without ellie, i am nothing. like a void. i need soemthing to fill thiz.... FCK. wut wud u call thiz.

awsum name cuming soon!!

i hv no control ovr anything. my room, what i eat, barely my body. whats the point of anything.

at least theres shark. we share the same opions on everything!1 lucky me hes in most of my classes :33 even if we were we cud jsut sneak out of skool togehter nd get mcdondalds.

he makes life worth living!!!! :]

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